I am so worried about Alex. I pray that the Angels watch over him and give him strength to get through the next few years. It gets better. In fact it gets a lot better. Even if I don't live long enough to see him, he should know that I love him and his brother very much, and want him to live a long, happy life. Don't ever give up.
A beautiful woman will find him, and I hope they have many kids. I have a few things from my dad that I hope to end up with my grand kids.
Life is such a wonderful gift, even with all the crap it can bring. Hang in there
Like my dad used to say "Don't let the bastards grind you down".
College and your 20's will rock. Keep plugging away.